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boy in field
05:57
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& in the stone field stands a tired boy
& in the mountain there is man
he’s quite pathetic & analytical
he doesn't know what to do with his hands
& the boy heard a story of an oxen
he didn't know he was strong
horns are pretty intimidating
& human bodies are pretty soft
& the boy thought
i am tired
i am strong
i am human
& i am soft
great grandfather would carry boulders
on his bare broken back
so he thought about that
& he thought about the man
he may one day be
& how he really doesn't know what that means
thought he'd see it on TV
so he laid down
& he thought
i just want to be me
for I am tired
i am strong
i am human
i am soft
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Mount Horrid
05:15
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the parking lot was an edifice
don’t leave your car someone will break in
& then came the thunder heads
coming down from Mount Horrid
coming down after coming out
i felt supported
the sky
It turned orange
& the green mountains
were blue back then
& just for a moment
i felt something
unconditional
(wind coming off the mountains)
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3. |
timothy too tall
05:03
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(back in april when my voice was different)
can’t you see i'm lying at the foot of the bed
im just trying to settle down
im trying not to let you down
so many things i tried to keep in
trust me i did
but there’s so many times
i resorted to my fists to cry
& i screamed at the world
& i tried to fly
& i brought all my old friends outside
& i lived an unsettling life
& i lived a thousand times
so today i'd like to try to remember
the losing times
the grass field where i tried to hide
the timothy too tall i packed it down
& i felt small
& i hid on the inside of the world
& i felt like i wasn't a girl
& i tried to hide all the thoughts
i was fed by all those people
brought my books & i knew why
i didn't want to be so blueberry eyed
blonde haired ringlets
god how the time flies
where did that girl go
like she left me behind
with those strawberries
they weren't ripe at the time
but i waited
now look at them
redder than the reddest
sight you'd ever see
redder than the inside
of your cheek
so thank you for leaving those strawberries
nothing else
i didn't want your time
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4. |
earth grown
04:08
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i brushed off the soil
& knelt down
finding myself in doubt
& in the deep inky water
where i washed my hands off
it made my skin soft
& that old stomach seemed to go away
as my neck grew thick
& hair course
& body solid
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5. |
bone & wool
02:55
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this life culls
to the one i owe
to the narrow frame
of what stays the same
& if the violent wind
took me to the emerald sea
maybe then
the wooden gun cabinet
wouldn't look so dusty
& i am building homes
of bone & skin & wool
& among the planted oak
there is every plank i’ve climbed
to swallow every sunrise
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petroglyph
02:57
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like an artifice
of what is left of my femininity
i brought the scissors to my neck
& allowed it to leave me
my eyes red from the guilty salinity
it's just an artifact
it's just an artifice
it's just a petroglyph
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powerful. man.
04:09
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& i fell down
searching around these mountains
trying to figure myself out
& when i reached the precipice
i had already shed my skin
& peeled off the labels id been given
though i was still haunted
so i asked the ghost to leave
she was the women
everyone thought i would be
& i just want to make my grandfather proud
& bring the earthworms back to the soils
of my hometown
though i was once haunted
the ghost did finally leave
she was the women
i would never be
& when she finally left
i saw myself standing
right in front of me
so here i stand
here i am
a powerful
man
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charlie Vermont
a native vermonter living on an island exploring stories & feelings trough sound & visuals
-- narratives of agriculture, antenatal memories, & gender traversing voyages
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